That's it, I'm not finishing this semester at college. I truly have no strength to deal with it the way it is. I'm facing a major depression episode. Some days I don't feel like getting out of bed and I really really hope I'm not alive in a few days out weeks. I don't see the point of paying for something I'm not going to do anymore. There's no hope and future for me. I am really done. I don't know how yet, but I'm done.
Everything I've tried to make me better was just a big waste of time. I don't like life and I don't like living. That's simple. I've done the things I wanted to back in 2010. Ever since, ive just been existing and being a parasite.
I don't want to push any further. There's nothing left to try. I'm not interest in anything, I don't want to do anything that is considered important in this existence.
People are making so fucking mad, politics are driving me crazy and I'm so lonely it hurts.
I'm broken and there's no fixing I consider. I don't want to try anymore. I'm tired. The lack of meaning is killing me.